Fragments

Today was the day Obama was sworn in as President. It should have been a glorious day, but I have been feeling out of sorts and weird all day, like I am seeing things and experiencing reality through a dream-like fog. At work I worked hard to get kids caught up so they would not fail their classes. I missed the inauguration, although it was playing in the lunchroom. I am so tired...

I just watched Obama's inaugural address, and his voice and his words were soothing to me. But I still feel an ache. I think I should drink some chai tea and watch a good, familiar, comforting movie. Or else just go to bed and wait for it to pass.

Yesterday I was napping on the couch with Grace when in the midst of my dreaming, I heard a song from a movie that Garrett was watching. The music filled me with such a profound sadness that seemed to come from nowhere except the fact that I was half-asleep and my defenses were down. When I came fully awake, it melted away. Perhaps I am still trying to shake it.

I ran into a friend at the grocery store today. She asked me how I was, and I answered, "Crappy. I know I'm supposed to say 'fine,' but I don't care. I feel crappy today."

And that was OK with her.

But last night I made some snobby joes from Veganomicon, and they were super delicious. So there's that.

I ran into another friend on my way out of the grocery store, a lady who used to own the small restaurant/cafe that I waitressed at a couple of years ago. She beamed when she saw me and gave me a big hug.

Tomorrow will be a better day.