Addiction

It has been a strange day, a day of contrasts and ups and downs. It was extremely difficult for me to get out of bed, even more so than usual. As a result, I got up later than I should have and was in a rush getting myself and the boys ready. Then, while I was getting my coffee ready, I accidentally dumped a ton of sugar into it, and I had no time to make any more. I went off to work with no coffee.

I never realized how dependent I am on the caffeine. I was exhausted. The entire first hour I was supposed to be working with some students on their homework. Instead we just sat there and visited. I sat with my head in my hands, feeling fuzzy and fatigued. I was better after having a snack and some water, but this afternoon I actually drank a can of Mountain Dew. This is something I have not done for years. I was helping my group of boys get their Economics work done and one of them asked me to sneak down to the teachers lounge to get him a pop, and I said I would if he bought me one. The others starting giving me change and putting their orders in, and then even my supervisor gave me an order.

Since returning from vacation, the students have been working like crazy. Maybe it's because there are only two weeks left of the semester and they have just now decided they don't want to fail their classes. Whatever the reason, I have been busy getting kids caught up on old tests and handing in a lot of late work.

When I got home from work I made myself a cup of decaf coffee to drink while I wrote an article for the paper. I might need to do something about this addiction, and the fatigue. Like maybe go to bed before midnight?